hello everyone.. hmm it's been a while since i posted an entry.. anyway, really felt stirred to post an entry here to encourage everyone. :)

the other day during sub-d i was sharing about my prayer needs right.. well, just want to explain more about what's happening these days. actually since the start of the school term, i have been wanting to evangelise and reach out to people but i always didn't know how or lacked the courage to do so. it seemed even harder to me than in junior college, where i was so proud of my faith that somehow everyone in the class has heard me talk about God before. but when i came to uni, it just felt more difficult to answer people when they ask, "where are you going?" or "what are you having tonight?", when the answer was simply, "to meet my church friends" and "caregroup". i guess that the main barrier to me reaching out to them was myself. i had let many opportunities to evangelise fly past me.. and in doing so, i had unknowingly hurt God and caused discouragement to myself as well.

however, God is indeed gracious towards me and He is faithful in what He has planned for me. one night (i think a few days ago or last week), i had a dream. in that dream, i was with this primary school friend of mine. well in the first place, i don't really know him very well and besides, i don't really have a good impression of him (or at least i remb not having a good one). then what shocked me after waking up was that in the dream, i talked to him and after a while, i offered to pray for him and prayed for him there and then. when i woke up, i was like, "wah.. if i can do so for someone who's not so close to me, what more can i do for my closer friends!" i was determined that, yes, God is telling me to start sowing! together with YF's shepherding lesson on tue which was about reaching out and connecting to people, i was really convicted to start sowing once again.

then on thurs (okay the day of testimony!), it was a day when God so evidently put people into my lives and pointed out to me, "LOOK, these are the people whom I love". about 12 midnight (early thurs), i was suddenly prompted to call this junior of mine. she was taking Alevels and is someone whom i've been trying to sow on (she visited our church last year). during this exams period, i've msged her a few times but that night, i just felt like calling her on the phone, not knowing whether i'd disturb her studying/rest for the next day's paper. however, while talking to her, i found that she had no paper the next day and was actually taking a break from study. so thank God i called at the right time! we chatted and i even invited her to service. now, she has told me that she would come for next sat's service! PTL :D btw, her name is joyce too.. heehee.

yup, then on thursday morning itself, when i was in school, i just felt a lot of joy. really unexplained, cos when i usually get to my 8am math lect, i'll be feeling and looking grumpy cos of lack of sleep. but that day, i just smiled to people as i met them. it was like grinning la! and the thing was, i didn't feel stupid for being so joyful (ok norm i would, thinking that ppl would think im a goondoo). God helped me to see that it's always about people, not myself. also, that morning i smsed my friend who was having thai oral exam. this girl was my coursemate from SDE and i've been rather close to her ever since orientation. during lect, i smsed her a prayer for her exam and thank God that she replied with much thankfulness! it was beginning to be like what i dreamt - praying and caring for friends.

after lecture, i went to central lib with 3 friends. while studying, one of my friends received some bad news from home and was rather affected. at that point of time, i was prompted to share with her my headphones to let her listen to P&W songs which i was listening to at that time. i guess that was a big move forward cos i am not very close to her and it was the first time we were studying together. she's a christian too, but not "stabilised" yet. after our studying, i managed to bring her to HQ for a while cos i was walking her back to SDE. thank God for that time cos i managed to talk to her more about church and the importance of fellowship. at the end when we parted, she even said, "bye and God bless you!". wahh.. so cute right :)

then the last person that day was this guy called Alan who joined us for dinner before subd. most of you would have talked to him. haha this person is one potential leader! the fact that he came to join us for dinner is already a miracle. cos that afternoon about 5.30pm i was talking to him on msn. and when i said i had to go off for dinner with my church friends, and offered him to join us if he didn't mind (obviously in my mind i thought he wouldn't want to join us cos i said it was with christian friends.. but God still worked in him amazingly!) . and he was like, okay.. if you don't mind, can i join you for dinner? wow! during the dinner, i got to know him better and thanks to yeuann and hongtao who were there to learn Vietnamese history from him. haha. and i think Alan will be joining us for studying next week! let's get to know him better.

yup, i think that this is a super long post and thank you for reading up to here. haha though, i am not exactly done with what i want to say..

basically, it's just so heartwarming when God expands my heart for His people. to be stretched to love people more. and it's challenging to live out everyday filled with such great purpose - always thinking of how to bring in the gospel, how to capture that opportunity to stand up for Jesus. but really exciting and rewarding! i'm learning to depend on Him more and more each day.. and there is really a big difference in doing so! want to encourage all of us to walk closely to Him and never to put God at the backseat even as we study hard for our exams. with the HS's anointing, we will be able to do much better! Jesus is our source yea :)

PS. i'll be bringing a Japanese friend on monday evening to NUS. hehe.. another PL leh. told eugene-san about it already.. yup get ready to know this guy better!